Prologue

Some might say it was a quixotic venture. Some might say, What the hell does quixotic mean?

I'm not being pretentious or attempting high-brow prose, quixotic is merely the perfect word to describe my quest. In other words: idealistic, unrealistic or essentially, impossible.

So why did I set off on an impossible journey in the first place? Simple - I was in search of happiness. Back in 2002, I hated life. I was bored, dissatisfied and directionless, whilst everybody else seemed to be perfectly happy. I couldn't understand what was wrong with me - why I couldn't be happy. In my mind I visualised a paradise island where everyone lived in a state of bliss. I wanted to live there too, so I set out to find it.

I constructed a boat and promptly set sail - destination: Isle of Glee. However, it transpired that my boat wasn't particularly seaworthy and I lacked navigational skills and, unsurprisingly you might think, I encountered unpredictable waters... but I was determined to get there, whatever it took.

Come to think of it, forget quixotic... it was a karmic venture. Many things are said about karma: you reap what you sow, what goes around comes around, etc. When I set out on my journey I knew very little about karma. As things began to go wrong karma emerged as the reason why. It was little comfort however, particularly when tragedy struck. You see, someone's life was irreversibly ruined...

Since that time I have embarked upon many hours of analysis, trying to work out if it was my fault. Was my quest for happiness really the trigger? Because, you know, I didn't mean to cause the devastation. It wasn't intentional. And ultimately, was I the perpetrator, or actually the victim? Because as far as I could see, I encountered much of the suffering that did the rounds. And... does any of it really matter? We are born, and sometime later we die. Everything in between is karma.

Karma is unpredictable. Life is unpredictable. Life is karma.

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Introduction to True Colours

True Colours is about a woman's journey of self-discovery. Both the characters and aspects of the story were influenced by people and events that I came across and/or heard about during my 20s. In particular the subjects of personal responsibility, self-identity, morality and karma are central to the plot.

The novel has been written in the style of a memoir in order to explore in depth the thoughts and emotions of a woman trying to make her way in a world dominated by consumerism, media and the pursuit of affluence. The aim was to expose the innermost thoughts of someone struggling to find their own identity and has been written in a particular way in order to be entertaining, thought-provoking and sometimes shocking.

Prologue to follow...
KD